where should i be?

I hate this feeling of not knowing if I am in the right direction. The books I have read lately have led to some inspiration to lead my own path. Leading to more thinking about if I am really where I should be. I thought I was good but the feeling of uneasiness fills my cup to easily. This is a red flag in my book. If so soon after signing up for this change I am uneasy maybe I was not ready. Maybe I just jumped and thought I would land safely on my feet. But the truth is my mind is unclear and that sets the unease. The question of whether or not I am headed in the right direction. I understand the notion of following your heart. I feel that I neglected my heart and jumped into the abyss. Anyway today of all days it comes down hard on me. These emotions and not knowing where to store them. I guess I should meditate, and recognize them so they can give me a break. However this leads to thinking about my interests. The truth is I am not interested. I just want to just leave it be. I wonder what the repercussions would be if I just walked away for now. But I have this innate tendency to finish what I start. So consequently I feel stuck! How does one get unstuck without guilt drowning them? I hate that this is how I was programmed.