vertigo

saturday morning...
as i woke up this morning i lifted my head i felt the room start to spin. so i put my head back down and breathe. i figure i just need to lie down for a moment and let this spinning pass. i sit up slowly and i felt everything spinning. i held my head in my palms and waited for the spinning to stop. as it stopped i walked outside to get some fresh air. my thinking was out of control at this point. i went over everything from last night to yesterday: what did i eat, did i drink enough water, and on and on. i was trying my best to put the puzzle together to figure out why my head started to spin. outside the episode happened again and i lied down on the grass. I felt so faint and really feel like blacking out. the only thing that kept the spinning from slowing down was my hands over my eyes. i did my best to not freak out but eventually i told my mom and went back inside to lie down on the bed. this is when the nausea and vomitting hit me. i cried because i was scared and confused. i hated being either of those two especially at the same time. my mom called the ambulance and the ride to the hospital was so blurry and fast. as the time went on i kept getting so weak and the spinning continued. the only thing that stands out in my brain was the needle poking my skin for iv purposes. an hour later with some medicine to help stablize me i was back to normal. the doctor told me that i experienced vertigo. i have never had that in my life and as i researched on this symptom i realized how luck i am to have these episodes only for ten to twenty seconds. i have read that some people have it for hours. i am so grateful to have it for a small amount of time.

as i write about this event now i am thankful for medication. think about how in the old days people just had to suffer. now we have doctors and medication to help us make sense of the world and reduce our suffering. it takes a couple weeks to fully recover from vertigo but i am hopeful to recover quicker. this event has really opened my eyes to taking better care of myself.